February 2005 : When Things Got Rough
I went to Crossroad with EV and RC, her boyfriend. I didnt really enjoying the service at first. Probably because I went to church with EV and RC, I found out that they are quite strangers for me, and I also felt that I'm a stranger among them. I felt sort of like a mosquitoes whenever I walk with them. Most of the time, they were talking in dutch which means that I couldn't jump in into the conversation. So, I was a bit disappointed at the time. I almost decided not to come back to Crossroad again, when God whisper to me this thing, "Just give it a try next week, then you could judge whether it is good for you or not". I was a bit shock when I heard that. But then again, I did give it a try. I went home to Enschede, and I prayed for the church in which I could jump in. It was a bit late, maar het is toch beter dan nooit (but it is better then nothing).
I started to live my own world at the time. I didn't go to the bible study and also church in Enschede, but I did talking to God. For me, I couldn't live without Him. He guided me always through my days. I felt stronger and stronger each day. Although sometimes I still remember HV and also what PD had told me about the testimonies I gave to the congregation. I have never felt as hurt as that time before.
Every single day I only prayed so that I could forgive them and bless them. It had never been easy for me to experience that. But at some point, you just have to pass through it.
The next Sunday finally came. I went to Crossroad again by myself. I had to wake up at 5 oclock in the morning, to have my quiet time and also my very early breakfast before I catch up the 8.27 train to Amsterdam Centraal. But to be honest, I enjoyed those moments a lot. I could read lots of books on the train and for sure I had my own time at that moment. So, I do enjoy it.
When I arrived at Crossroad, I could see that God really true. I mean, I felt that I was touched by the sermon at the time. I could see how God lead me and how He really answering my prayers and I also felt that I was more secure in running my life. Somehow I just feel great.
I decided then to join their bible study in Utrecht. It took me quite some time to find one. Which is finally I join one; they named it as Prime Time. Prime Time is sort of like DATE of JPCC. One thing that is different is that we didnt have time to share what we feel and things like that. What we did was basically only learned from one book and discussed it together. It was fun though, and guess what, because of me they have to speak in English. Before wards, they could spoke in dutch because everybody are dutch (at least everybody spoke dutch).
I could see that my life was changed since I moved to Crossroad. Its just different. I could land again on the ground instead of flying in the air going no where. My greatest moments of my stay in The Netherlands are on these times, February to the end. It was really really nice.
I started to live my own world at the time. I didn't go to the bible study and also church in Enschede, but I did talking to God. For me, I couldn't live without Him. He guided me always through my days. I felt stronger and stronger each day. Although sometimes I still remember HV and also what PD had told me about the testimonies I gave to the congregation. I have never felt as hurt as that time before.
Every single day I only prayed so that I could forgive them and bless them. It had never been easy for me to experience that. But at some point, you just have to pass through it.
The next Sunday finally came. I went to Crossroad again by myself. I had to wake up at 5 oclock in the morning, to have my quiet time and also my very early breakfast before I catch up the 8.27 train to Amsterdam Centraal. But to be honest, I enjoyed those moments a lot. I could read lots of books on the train and for sure I had my own time at that moment. So, I do enjoy it.
When I arrived at Crossroad, I could see that God really true. I mean, I felt that I was touched by the sermon at the time. I could see how God lead me and how He really answering my prayers and I also felt that I was more secure in running my life. Somehow I just feel great.
I decided then to join their bible study in Utrecht. It took me quite some time to find one. Which is finally I join one; they named it as Prime Time. Prime Time is sort of like DATE of JPCC. One thing that is different is that we didnt have time to share what we feel and things like that. What we did was basically only learned from one book and discussed it together. It was fun though, and guess what, because of me they have to speak in English. Before wards, they could spoke in dutch because everybody are dutch (at least everybody spoke dutch).
I could see that my life was changed since I moved to Crossroad. Its just different. I could land again on the ground instead of flying in the air going no where. My greatest moments of my stay in The Netherlands are on these times, February to the end. It was really really nice.
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